punk rock ruined our lives

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    Closet Monster Is Still Dead

    So in finality, we have put three unreleased songs and a collection of our past remastered anthological numbers onto a limited number of clear with red smoke vinyl records. We have entitled it Suicide Note, and it’s mostly for ourselves, but also for anyone who we may have crossed paths with during our ten years as a band or whom we may have struck an emotional or political chord.

    Any money made by this record or any of our past records, is going to go to our friends and all the dogs at Land Of The Strays dog shelter in Costa Rica… check out this video here to see what we are talking about: www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQreKwiQDZk

    In a perfect completion of a circle kind of way, this record is also the last record that Underground Operations will ever put out… you can read the labels formal statement here: www.undergroundoperations.com

    To go along with “Suicide Note” we put together a little music video that is oozing with nostalgia and which was created in the hopes that it might touch a few people’s hearts the way it touches ours when we watch it. We met so many fucking wonderful people during our travels it’s amazing to think back upon. The people who sang our songs with us, the promoters who put on the shows, the people who let us crash on their floors or play in their living rooms, the other bands we shared the stage with, and all the people who contributed in their own ways to what seems to be now the last generation of true networked local scenes. I feel old when i think about how it used to be. Im sure a lot of us do. But man, it was wonderful how it all worked back then. You can watch it here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=-T_f8-IoWpg

    There is not a lot to say about the band now. Its been so long since anything has ever come of it. It almost feels like a dream or at times just a faded tattoo we all wear from our past. But now, however many years later, i understand that it was so much more than that. It played a unique role in who we were to each to become in life, and hopefully who we will continue to grow into.

    When we decided to go our separate ways so many years ago, we all promised each other it was just a temporary hiatus, which turned out to be just something we told ourselves at the time because it was nearly eight years before we all sat in the same room again. So why now this? Make no mistake about it, this is not us jumping on the reunion bandwagon… there is no delusion here. There will be no show. No tour. No jamming. Etc. I would like to think that we cant say it will never happen, but we definitely proved to ourselves this is not the right time. However, we feel like some kind of closure was needed, because we never left a note, we just kinda faded away and tried to ignore it. So this it. This record is our suicide note, from so many years ago. And hopefully if the band meant anything to you, it will find it’s way into your hands. And that is the most we can hope for. That is why.

    We always said that in the end we hoped to see you in a smoke filled coffee shop one day, so that we could talk what we’ve all been through. So reach out if you want. Send us old flyers or photos. There are tons of old stories locked away. That would be so awesome. If nothing else comes of this, this is a great opportunity to reconnect and see how each other are doing… after all, this post is going to sit on here for a long time to come, so it’s an open invitation which is rad. Plus the political climate doesnt look like its going to cool down anytime soon so there is going to be a lot to talk about for the next couple years… hah.

    Anyway… if you are reading this, there is a probably a reason. So thank you. <3

    Closet Monster*

    This truly aint no mecca man, this place is truly fucked
    We built it up and watched it fall. And survived with those we trust
    All we were searching for was someone or something to believe in.


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antoher fucking town and another fucking day
and I just can't believe that this place still looks the same.
we got our whole damn world nailed through our hand
each other in a rusted van. home is wehre we play.

remember when all we dreamed was to be living this.
remember when we wanted to change their world with our own fists.
and now we're here living it. our world is what we play.
we live what we create. alright this is it. this is our time right now.

remember together.
we know that his won't last forever.
i always thought my life would never change again.
but now I know.
i gave up wondering way too long ago.
we took control.
we carved in stone.
this world is what we make.

this song could never justify, two million breaths to realize
where we would end up tonight
mods and rockers- late Wednesday night
the mix tape that I made, it ruined my life.


from suicide note, released December 2, 2016



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